..Kudos to the Hubby..

I know I am such a slacker at posting updates lately and I'm so sorry for leaving you all hanging.  Work is crazy busy and I don't have a lot of time to do my blog stuff while at work.

My appointment after finishing the Mock EEP Cycle went so great!  I had no idea how my body would respond to the Del Estrogen injections.  My hubby gives them to me because being a worrier, I wanted to make sure that they were done right so I didn't drive myself crazy worrying over every little thing.  He did such a fantastic job that my lining responded so well it was 8.5 mm.  This is wonderful! They like to see it at 8 or above.  This means I can carry a baby.  The thick uterine lining is the best place for the embryo to implant. So one thing is in our favor!  I started Provera later that night to induce my period which started this past Saturday.  The next step was suppose to be the Mock Embryo Transfer, but because I am in between health insurance plans, I have to wait until Jan unless I want to pay out-of-pocket which I don't.  So for now, we just let my body take it's natural course and figure out where we want to go from here.  I'm sad we can't move onto the next step, but it's the smartest choice and it will eventually happen.

We still have not discussed or decided on a plan of where we want to go with this baby stuff!  The adoption is still an option (the girl I told you about before still hasn't come through) and so is the Donor Egg IVF!  It's a tough conversation for me because my hubby stresses about money and I don't want to bring on more stress for him by asking what we should do mainly in regards with the DE IVF and the cost.  $30,000 is HUGE! Yes, it is SO worth it to have a baby but we both have to be in agreement with this choice. I know he is for it I'm just not sure when in his mind he thinks we should pursue it. I have to have this conversation with him soon because it's eating me alive inside. My stomach hurts, I have anxiety and I'm sad. I hate this loss I feel and the emptiness.  Trusting that I will be a Mom has been hard when months and months go by and no progress in this area.

I am part of a wonderful online support group that has been there for me and has gotten me through the tough times.  I decided to ask some of the gals in my IVF w/DE group how they were able to afford treatments.  I wasn't sure what to expect or what people would say.  God definitely heard my prayers and  a wonderful lady reached out to me with an amazing possibility of affording DE IVF!! It's something I would have never considered before.  Cycling abroad in Europe!!! It's hard to trust other countries when you don't know a lot about them, but I've done some research on the program and it sounds amazing.  I will be speaking with her on the phone on Thursday to discuss more details.  It would require a journey to the Czech Republic! :)  The cost is unbelievable and it's legit.  I'm excited to learn more about it and to figure out if this is something we want to pursue!  It's affordable and seems more realistic. I will explain more once I speak with her. I'm excited about this possibility and feel like God is truly opening doors for us that we never thought would be possible.  This is not a decision to make quickly. It requires time, prayer and research.  So far, I love what I see!

Hope everyone is doing well and congrats to all the BFP's and all the new birth's!

Much love,
Lauren