..If two pieces of bad news weren't enough, now there are 3!!!!

When it rains, it pours!!!!

Bad luck always comes in 3's!!!!

I've hit the bad luck pot!!!!

I told you in my last post that the house we had a contract on fell through. We also found out that our lender mislead us and told us we qualified for the house, to then being told we weren't while deep in the middle of a contract. If this wasn't enough to deal with. The news of my boss quitting was the best news and I had was beginning to see things on the positive side. Our plan to move to CA was still in effect and I was excited about my job search.

Then on Tuesday, it all came crashing down.

I had only been at work for about 3 hours to be pulled into one of our managers office and was given the most shocking news: They were laying me off!!!!! My boss was out of town so his boss delivered the bad news!!! They say it was due to budget cuts! Not so sure I believe this. I was in complete shock and couldn't believe it! It took me awhile to process it all. I felt this was just opening the door wider to move to CA and it would give me the time to focus on really hunting for a job in CA and being free to travel for interviews. Then it hit me, on no my health insurance and IVF! I knew that my insurance could continue through Cobra and we could still do IVF but how on hearth would we ever afford Cobra? I've heard it's very expensive. Living off my DH's income, my unemployment (who knows how much this will be) how will we afford paying for Cobra and then all the co pays that come along with IVF. I strongly feel that if this is important enough to us to continue IVF, we will make it work. My DH on the other hand, isn't so sure about it anymore. I told him it would only be a handful of copay's and in the long run it will be so worth it to get our miracle baby.

I know that everything will work out. Just right now I'm having a hard time staying positive. Everything hit me yesterday and I had a huge meltdown. I'm so afraid to hit rock bottom again after doing well for so many months. This stress will not be good for my body if we continue to go through with IVF. I know my DH will come around, I just think he needs time to process it all. Thankfully, I can transfer to another position within my company if there are any available and there are. My hope is to get an interview next week and be hired before my last day on Friday. I wouldn't have to go on unemployment and I wouldn't loose my health insurance. This would be a miracle if it actually happened! I just pray that God helps me stay strong and positive throughout this tough time. My DH tends to get really stressed about money and I hope he can see beyond this and know that this is only a temporary situation. We will get through this. 

I'm doing ok right now. I'm kind of numb to the whole situation. We could use all the prayers we can get right now and they are much appreciated!!!

I'll update more when I have more news about my job hunt.

Thanks for all your love and support!

-Lauren