..1 month & Cryo Surgery..

One month from today I will be sitting in my new RE's office preparing for IVF#2! It's finally just around the corner. I have been waiting for this day for so long that it doesn't feel real. Hubby is so on board this time and this has been huge for me. I don't feel so alone. I was always so afraid to ask what he was feeling. He finally told me that having a baby is more important than a house and more important than anything else in this world! WOW was I shocked when I heard these words come out of his mouth. We're so close to having our baby! Praying this is God's will and that we accept whatever he brings to us.

Cryo Surgery was today to remove precancerous cells from my cervix. This is my 2nd one and this time hurt like HELL! I'm dry from the Lupron so I tore when she put the speculum in(ouch) and then they take this gun looking thing that shoots out the stuff to freeze your cervix and hold it on your cervix for a very long five minutes...horrible, awful never want to experience this pain again. I had intense cramping that I had to endure for the 5 minutes. Thankfully, I'm comfortable talking with my Dr when she's down yonder and she started talking to me and this helped distract the pain. My Dr is so awesome I just love her! I layed there after for about 5 minutes thinking I was gonna pass out the cramping was so bad. My face was beat red(no joke) and I hurt coming out of her office and I still have cramping....just not as bad thank God! She did a pap smear before to see if there was any more growth of the bad cells and I will be rechecked on 9/2/2010. There is a 20% it will occur again. I'm hoping it doesn't. So I can cross this of my list! Yay!!!!

Things are good. I'm really busy and finding it hard to find time to exercise. We are in the process of buying house so pretty much any free night we have, we are looking at houses with our realtor. It's fun, but draining. We are so eager to find a house! Bringing home a baby to a HOUSE and not an APARTMENT is where we want to be. I'm confident this will happen soon we just have to be patient. Patient...what's that?

My mood is a bit better. My Dr took me off birth control(was suppose to help with the side effects from the Lupron shot) to get ready for July when we start the fertility treatments(IVF). She said if things get too bad to where I can handle myself, she'll put a call into my RE's office and see what can be done in the meantime. Hoping things don't get any worse. If the mood gets worse, it's gonna be a long month and a half.

Looking forward to the summer! Lots of exciting things happening!
CA in July, IVF in July and moving into a new house!=)

Hope everyone is doing well!

****Baby dust to all****

Lauren