..Still hanging in there..

Hi blog friends!  It's been a few weeks since my last post so I thought I would just say a quick hello!  Things are going ok.  Still no AF and my body has no idea what it wants to do.  I've been having some pretty intense hot flashes and some yucky CM which I will NOT go into detail about! So not fun.  I have my next sonogram/blood work next Tuesday @ 7am to check my uterus lining, the size of my ovary and my FSH level.  From here, if everything is pretty much the same, we will start the MOCK EEP cycle.  This will be about a month's process so more waiting.  Even if things have changed for the better, this still does not change the damage of my ovary.  My FSH could lower, I could get a period or my lining could thicken, but if the ovary is damaged these things don't matter.  God has definitely been working in our lives.  As this now more than ever.

My granpda is very sick and won't be with us much longer.  He has a great sense of things to come and him saying that he see's our baby out there meant a lot to me.  His vision became so clear to us last week.  God has opened doors we didn't think we would be going down or going down so soon.  I don't want to jinx anything, but we've been approached by a friend about a possible adoption of an un-born infant.  My DH and I feel like this is the road that we are suppose to take right now.  I have never felt more at peace with my infertility than I do now.  I have come to terms with the fact that I may never bear my own children and I'm okay with this....yes shocking I know!  If you trust in the Lord, then you trust his will for your life.  I trust Him and I know that he will make us parents even if it's  not the way we had in visioned.  Adopting this baby is a gift that we could never have imagined.  It came as a complete surprise and we are waiting to hear more information to see if the girl wants to meet us.  It's a complicated situation and we are just praying that if this is meant to be, than it will happen.  Once we have more details, I will do another post.  Right now, we are just asking for prayers that if this is the road we are suppose to go down that we don't get our hearts broken in the end.  It's exciting but very scary at the same time!

Other than the usual, things are good! 

I hope everyone is doing well!!!

I look forward to updating more on the possible adoption!!!! :)

Much love,
.Lauren.