..CD3 Appointment with my RE..

Hi ladies (maybe gents)-

Sorry for the delay in posting an update.  Didn't have the best night last night and didn't feel like talking about this.  So Monday I went in for CD3 BW/US at my Fertility Clinic.  A little background quick to help you understand why this appointment was so monumental.

• From March (when I had my 3rd surgery) until November, my body was in shut down mode. 
• From March till April my body was trying to get on a normal cycle by itself.  
• From April till June my body was suppressed with Lupron injections.
• From July till November we waited for my body to wake up.
• October 1st AF induced by Provera.
• Beginning of December first AF started on it's own.
• Jan. 1 (27 days after Dec AF) AF started on it's own AGAIN.
• Jan. 28th (28 days after Jan. 1 AF) AF started on it's own.

The past two cycles have made me wonder what's been going on.  When my RE started the vaginal ultrasound, he turned the screen to show me 6 follicles inside my ovary.  This was great news.  For 8 months there was no activity with my ovary and it was very, very small.  He said the size looked good and that the 6 follicles could be a sign that my body is waking up.  He knew I was there to see if IVF w/my eggs was a possibility, so seeing this was great news.  But, of course, we still had to wait for the blood test results because this really tell all and gives the whole picture of what's really going on.  At about 2 pm that afternoon, my nurse called and gave me the results.  

Background on FSH:

September FSH - 42 (ouch)

October FSH - 17 (much better but still too high)

January FSH - 11.9

My clinic likes to see an FSH of 8 or below for an IVF cycle with my eggs.  A high FSH is an indicator of premature ovarian reserve and a reduced amount of eggs.  I've known all along I've had this so this doesn't surprise me that my FSH is still elevated.

Estrogen:

Estrogen level has never been elevated.  I've been having some intense hot flashes lately, and I know why now.  

Estrogen was - 76.3 (it should be 50 or lower)

An elevated estrogen level can be an indicator of premenopause/menopause.  This surprised me.  So it's not just one hormone level, it's now 2 that are elevated.  

I'm producing follicles that hopefully contain eggs, but my hormone levels are elevated..what does this all mean?  I have a follow-up with my RE on Friday morning at 11:15 to discuss these results and where we go from here.  I want my RE's honest opinion about whether or not he thinks IVF w/my eggs is worth a try or not.  I want answers.  So in the meantime, he put me on BCP's - Ortho Novum to prepare my body for a Mock Embryo Transfer.  

DH is still on the house band wagon.  It doesn't seem like he gets how important it is to start IVF NOW if we are given the green light to use my eggs.  The longer we wait, the more damage my Endo will do which will lesson the chances of using my own eggs if not worse.  We have a lot to think about and some big decisions to make.  Deep down, I have this feeling our only option is going to be Donor Eggs. I want to think positively, but it's so hard when I continually get the same bad news that my hormone levels are too high.  I'm anxious for my appointment on Friday and just want to know our options.

I have my appointment with my OBGYN tomorrow at 12:15.  This is a follow-up from my cryosurgery last May to remove the pre-cancerous cells on my cervix.  I'm also going to bring up the pain I've been experiencing lately and all the nausea.  It's getting really hard to eat and forcing myself is nearly impossible.  I constantly feel like I'm going throw up.  I hate it.  I waste so much food because after about 2-3 bites, I'm nauseous and feel like throwing up.  Bleh.

So this is where I am at.  I'll post an update tomorrow on how my appointment goes with my OBGYN!!! Hoping she can give me some good meds to get me through this pain and nausea.  PLEASE!!!!

I'm off to bed to now to snuggle up with my bf, the heating pad!  It's a nightly ritual we have going that seems to be working out well!:)

Hope your all doing well! 

Happy hump day!:)

Lots of love,

-L-