..Cryosurgery follow up #2 with OBGYN..

Today I had follow up #2 for my Cryosurgery I had this past May.  November's pap came back clear and we are crossing our fingers this one does too.  Follow up #3 is scheduled for May 2.  I'm so glad they monitor you so closely when you've have pre-cancerous cells removed.  It helps me to not worry so much. But I'm in good hands and I know that if they did come back, my Dr would take the proper steps to remove them again.

I brought up the pain.  I told her how intense it has been.  More than usual.  I'm nauseous 24/7, I'm bloated, my lower back hurts, my ovary aches and hurts and constantly has sharp, stabbing pains, my hips ache, my bowels are a disaster and my bladder hates me.  I told her that at the moment, we aren't seeking any treatments until we are in a house (blah, blah, blah).  She doesn't like to interfere with my RE's treatment plan, but I told her that I feel most comfortable with her treating me for the Endo and for my RE to treat me for the IVF treatments.  I know he is fully capable of treating me, I just have this tie to my OBGYN, hence she has done all 3 of my surgeries.  I'm most comfortable with her.  She said, let's try you on the pill for about 3 months and see how the pain level is then.  She is just afraid that my endo is going to eat my uterus away and destroy it before it has a chance to carry a baby.  The best treatment other than another lap, is BCP.  If after 3 months the pain is still too intense, then we will discuss the possibility of removing my uterus!  This is a huge decision and not a decision I'm ready to make.  I trust her and I know her fears are valid.  She confirmed I have Stage 4 Endo (the worst possible) and it's only a matter of time before the Endo destroys my uterus and the remaining reproductive parts I have left.  So right now the goal is to try to preserve my uterus the best we can to give it a chance to carry a baby either through IVF w/my eggs or Donor eggs.

The BCP that she prescribed is the same one my RE prescribed so this is good because I started them on Monday night.  It's a mild BCP.  She wants me to have some hormones in my body to keep me somewhat normal so that I don't feel too menopausal.  I will skip the week of the sugar pills and go straight into the next pack to avoid having a period.  If no period, new Endo has a harder time growing!

I will see my RE on Friday at 11:15 and then take some time to process everything and come up with a plan of attack based on what he tells us.

None of this is new news, so it's not shocking to hear I could loose my uterus soon. There is always a surrogate and adoption.  We have options, just might not be the options we had hoped for.

God is in control and we just have to trust in Him!  As hard as this is, it's all we can really do!  No amount of worry is going to change the cards we've been dealt.  It's part of life, our life and we will get through it.

Look for an RE update sometime this weekend.

Thanks for your continued support, love and prayers!

-L-
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