..I feel gReAt..

I haven't had the chance to give an update in a few days and I miss posting. It's Monday and I typically HATE Monday's because I feel so crappy, but I don't feel so bad today. I'm tired but that is probably my only complaint. Well, I have some serious bloating going on which is making me look like I'm about 3 months pregnant but it's nothing I can't handle. hehe

Day 13
I was able to get my walk in thanks to the rain letting up. I didn't realize what a difference the walking has made. It helps so much with my bloating. We went to CPK for dinner and I did pretty well with my food choice - pasta that seemed to be pretty healthy. But of course got a darn flavored iced tea and this is cheating to me. It is so hard to not drink caffeine. I know that it's ok to have some right now, I just want to get my body prepared for when I am pregnant so it's not such a shock. So I've definitely cut down, I would say I may have caffeine about 3-4 times a week. I don't think that's so bad.

Day 14-16
My parents are in town so we spent the weekend with them at their TownHouse here in VA. I knew that it would be hard to stick to my IVF diet but figured hey, they are in town for such a short time, we are celebrating mother's day I can splurge a little. I felt soooooooooo crappy all weekend! Everything I ate made me feel so tired and gave me the worst bloated gut all weekend. I was so uncomfortable I was like NO MORE FOOD PLEASE.

Friday night we had Italian. I ordered a pomodoro pasta that is suppose to be healthy and I did ok with it. Sat lunch was Five Guys{bloating began}, Italian again for dinner another big mistake. I thought I was going to fart out my entire insides I was so bloated and gassy inside. I even walked for an hour on Sat. and I still felt this crappy. I woke up Sunday morning still bloated but it had gone down some. We had chipotle for lunch was ok, then Italian again for mother's day haha!=) Can you tell we love Italian? This actually agreed with me. I was bloated still but not neither as bad. I wasn't eating my normal breakfasts foods and I know this wasn't helping.

Not being on my routine really affects my body now. This is a good thing because this means the changes that I have made are working. I'm proud of myself for sticking with this. It's not easy giving up foods that I love so much, but if it means we get our baby, I'll do anything!!!!! We are so excited for this next chapter in our lives. We are sooooooo ready! Everything is just falling into place so nicely. Everything just feels right.

We have one more night out with the rents and fam for dinner tonight and I'm hoping they have something healthy but substantial on the menu that won't make me feel so dang bloated. Back to my whole routine tomorrow. Of course it has to be raining again. Thread mill may be my friend this week!=(

For the most part, I am still very hopeful and positive about things. Every once in awhile the doubt slips in but I make it go away pretty quickly. No matter how much I worry about things, it's not going to change the outcome. It's hard to let God take control. To trust that He knows best and that his timing is the right timing. I've never been more hopeful or positive about anything before until now. I won't deny that I'm not afraid of another BFN! I'm terrified! I day dream about our little family every night before I go to sleep as I'm lying in bed. It's what puts me to sleep. This is a happy time for me. Seeing our baby with us in our new house{which the house thing is actually happening} is the greatest visual for me. Seeing my hubby with our little {girl} is the most priceless picture! I just love it!=)

We have been given an amazing gift from my parents for a down payment for a house and this makes everything feel so surreal. We wanted nothing more than to have our first home together by the time our baby was born. It's actually going to happen. We are paying off a credit card and hope to be looking at houses in the next week or two. So you could say that we are doing great and on cloud 9 right now! Everything feels so right finally.

We are ready to embrace this next step in our lives of raising a child. We just pray that everything goes smoothly and that there are no complications in the process of getting to our BFP!

I called our new Fertility Clinic today to see if they have the July schedule up just yet and I'm just waiting for a call back. I'm so anxious to get this new patient appointment set up. I want the date to be able to count down to! haha

I hope everyone is doing well.

Keep the faith, don't loose hope and trust in the Lord!

Lauren