..Update ~ Day 6-11..

Hi everyone!
As you can see I haven't posted an update since Day 5. We had a very busy weekend of moving my MIL and my FIL was in town so I have very little down time. Things went well and we got a lot done. Sunday, Mother's Day was hard this year! Last year, it was just me, my DH, SIL and MIL! Now there was a baby. Things just felt different. As much as I love my niece, it was hard for me to not feel sad. I want to be a Mom more than anything and seeing my SIL with her little girl was bittersweet as well as very emotional for me. I know my time will come. I BELIEVE this with all of my heart. I was able to enjoy the rest of the day with just my DH and it was exactly what I needed.

Day 6-11 went well for the most part. I didn't get my walk in on Thursday which was a bummer and had to wait until Sunday to walk again. I tried to stick to my meal plan as best as I could but I found it was harder not being home or at work. We ate out every meal and it was so tempting to be BAD. The only part I caved on was caffeine. I couldn't resist. I had been so good, I just told myself this is it and when Monday comes, back to no caffeine. This and the sweets have been by far the hardest for me. I have always had a big sweet tooth and all I want to do is eat candy all day at work. Some of the yummy food I had were Salmon and mashed cauliflower from Coastal Flats, Chicken Scaloppine from Macaroni Grill and a delicious Mother's Day brunch at Blue Water. I think I did very well with all the temptations that were around me. I drank decaf coffee which sucked, but didn't taste too bad.

Day 9 I finally got my walk in and it felt wonderful. This has been a huge reason of why I feel so great. I honestly can't tell you the last time I felt so calm and peaceful. I'm not going to lie and say that bad things don't creep into my head, because they do. The past few days I've been thinking about how I'm going to feel during this next IVF cycle. During the two weeks of stims (injections to produce multiple follicles) I feel great emotionally. I'm happy, excited and hopeful. Then the dreaded tww(two week wait until pregnancy test)starts. This is when the doubts really kick in. I worry that it's not going to work. That we will end up with O embryos to freeze and only 1 that survives for the transfer. This is what creeps into my head now and then. Our insurance covers this cycle, and we are hoping we are able to get two cycles out of it for baby #2! Once the $$$ is exhausted, then we are left with paying out-of-pocket $20,000 or waiting a year to try again when we can switch health insurance again to get full infertility coverage again. But, in the end I have to realized that this is all in God's hands. It's His will and His plan. I keep having dreams that it works this time. That everything I have done to prepare is the reason we get our BFP! I feel good about things.

Today, Day 11 I have incorporated Zinc & extra Folic Acid. NOTE-TO-SELF: TAKE WITH FOOD! Zinc helps with egg production, and cell division and Folic Acid is used to help prevent major birth defects of the brain and spine.
Looks like I won't get my walk in tonight. The weather here in the DC area is rainy. I could always use the tread mil in our gym at our apartment complex, but I hate exercising indoors because I get bored and I don't last long.

So things are still good. Trying to stay as positive as I can. I know that we are doing everything we can to make this work this time and this feels good. I can't believe it's already May. July seems like it's right around the corner!=)

I hope everyone is doing well. Praying for those who are waiting for their BFPs and for those who are pregnant!

Lots of sticky baby dust to all!

Lauren